So if you happen to have read my ramblings lately, you will know that there has been a slightly dark cloud of pessimism over everything I say and write. I'm not sure why, but every once in a while, I'll go through spells where I set aside the sunny, cheery side of my personality and let the pessimist in me run rampant.
Of course, these bouts are always triggered by real life events that justify panic, frustration and overall freak-outedness every once in a while. Or so I'd like to think.
Most recently, the news and world events have just been driving me crazy. I always read the news, political blogs, etc. but every once in a while, there seems to be a perfect storm that makes me run around like my Curious Hair is on fire. And it's not always the big and obvious news events. Recently, I read about a newborn who had survived being buried alive in India--BY HER GRANDFATHER. Why? Because she was a girl, and he couldn't afford the daughters he had, much less a granddaughter who would just become another burden. Honestly, after reading that article in the morning, I burst into tears as I was getting ready for work. And there's everything else, the obvious stuff that drives everyone crazy. Add to this, the anxiety of another friend being diagnosed with cancer (third in less than two years); unsatisfying, dead-end job; crazy family stuff...It just makes me want to get on a little internet soapbox and bitch about everything.
Unfortunately I have no solutions, and this feeling of powerlessness and anxiety stresses me out even more. I am just capable enough of seeing all of this and recognizing how horribly wrong everything is. I can't think of any effective responses at all.
So I guess that's what I've been doing lately. The good news is, the clouds seem to be clearing a bit--in my mind at least. I'll be back to my goofy self soon.
Thanks for your patience. If you have any ideas of how to stop the insanity that seems to be taking over the world, please comment.